Thursday, February 24, 2011
Sometime, in another life ♥
how true it is, when you're alone and you get to understand more about life.
and the ones who said the least, actually means the most.
i'm trying hard to be a better person. for the first time, i feel so disheartened for my future. I'm always sure of where i wanna go and what i wanna be. I always thought i would go in to university if i worked hard, but i took one big round and eventually, i know i couldn't get in local uni. cause i calculated my gpa and no matter how hard i study, (even perfect 4 which is impossible) i couldn't get a decent gpa at the end of my poly life, and that's how jialat my result is :( Even have thought of, if i could turn back in time, i would go into a stressful JC life, rather have no life and mug my way through the 2 years. But well, now i truly understand 'we can only live once' and i can only give my very best from now. its kinda true that it doesn't mean having a local u cert means you will be successful.
I gonna start believing "when there's a will, there's a way".
I know i had a big big problem communicating. As in, seriously. my dearest close friends would know this. when i have problems, when im feeling sad, angry or annoyed. i would always keep everything to myself, not telling anyone, including my closest. I know its unhealthy but i tend to hold things probably because i had fears. Fear of rejection, fear of annoyance, fear of the how scary words-of-mouth can be spread so easily. im afraid of bringing unhappiness to others, thats why i seldom blog in words and letting people know how i feel all over the place. now i know, if i feel a certain way or want something, i should not be scared. Not that i will be entitled to everything, but at least i've tried. not asking to post everything in blog, fb, twitter or whatsoever to seek attention but to speak up when i have to.
"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter don't mind, and those who mind, don't matter." - Dr. Seuss
For the Year 2011!i know its kinda late to post now but im still gonna post this!1. people around me to be Happy & Healthy! (+me!)2. do my best in my studies.3. do BRACES! :D4. get a part-time job, earn lots of $$$! ^^5. better complexion, no freckles please :(6. a decent timing for both 2XU & Sundown marathons7. i want a getaway trip!8. hope can get in entrepreneurship+marketing9. a smooth-sailing year ahead!
can't think of anymore now, shall lengthen my list the other time!
we all know, life's a rollercoaster.
and everyday, i'm learning.
